One Step Back

It seems I have been thinking about H more lately, and know that I should not dwell on those thoughts, nor block them, but just let them flow through and on. Of course, this adds to the anger I feel towards being here and Mom...hmmm, projection, is it? For my own health I need to become peaceful.

Each morning there is more gold in the trees. Soon, too soon, they will be bare. A reminder of the seasons of my own life. Even if I don't "get it right" just "get it".