Me, at a better time

I am having computer issues, one of the reasons I cannot seem to post a picture.
So will try a work around.



Here goes nothing....will try to post this..

Last day of the Month

Hard to believe I have been here 5 months. The past 10 months a real disaster. I do try to practice what I preach. "Don't worry wether you have made the right decision, make the decision right" ..you know , the blah, blah stuff that is so darn hard to do and I am not doing well at it..
Woke up around 5:30 and just now got my wonderful first cup of java. Had picked up the beans in Lincoln yesterday. The coffee smelled so good when I went downstairs to retrieve my pot. One of lifes pleasures that I refuse to give up. Have cut down to about 2 - 3 cups in the morning.
Thought about H (the guy that ended the relationship) and managed not to get real emotional about it. I know it will get better. There will be good and bad days.
It seems I need to get some work done on the truck. Real problems to take care of..guess I had better suck it up and get going..

Evening on Wed. Sept 29

I did make the trip to Lincoln. Treated myself to a movie which was nice. A real action movie, "Collateral" with Tom Cruise. Did a little shopping...had a malt..almost feel human.
I was sorry that the trip back to Mom's was heading west as I got a glimpse of the moon in the east and it was certainly a harvest one. Beautiful!!! Would have been nice to see it longer.

Time to put me to bed......

Action

Looks as though I have been doing enough thinking, today is a day for action. Write up some descriptions for a few items to sell on eBay, box up a few more books for the eventual auction, get a money order off to the bank, drive to Lincoln for a couple of errands. Maybe in the "doing" I will feel a little better.
I see my sister is online. I have not talked to her lately. She refuses to do anything to help with Mom so why should I answer her quetions about "how is Mom?" when she won't even pick up the phone and call Mom to find out for herself. Then she would want to know how I am doing since I was dumped by the BF and I SURE don't want to talk about that!
Have not had a recurrence of the chest pain episode and will continue to try and choose a better way of feeling emotionally each morning.

Atitude Adjustment 2

Well, stress level continues to mount. Tried to post pictures yesterday and could not get that accomplished. Then hit the wrong key and posted just a title this morning. A son is having really bad personal problems at his work.
Yesterday afternoon almost had a complete meltdown. Finally spoke to a nurse who said you can only do what you can do. Giving up your whole life is not a good thing. If you need to move on, do so.
By evening, I felt like I could be having a heart attack. Decided I must get a handle on the stress, since it can kill, and make a plan. So that is part of the todays work. Set up a plan and then take some action, however little that may be.

Need Atitude Adjustment

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Another Monday

Here it is, the beginning of a new week and my state of mind has not improved very much. The scenario is as follows: in the last nine months, I lost my Dad (he had lived a long full life), my abode and job, moved to help take care of Mom (had a hip replaced and can no longer drive), and because I was out of state my long time guy friend said "this is too hard" so I don't want us to be a couple any more.
That was just a couple of weeks ago so still get the overwhelminng sad feelings. It seems age has nothing to do with a broken heart. Hurts just as much now as it has in the past.
So, now, the next question is, how do I handle all these crappy feelings, wanting to be back in my beloved Texas and among friends and family there?