Signs

The last couple of days it seems Mom is going down hill. And her mind is starting to go. If it is her time, I hope for both of us it is quick but who knows what is in store..Not I, for sure.

An Answer to Mr. Red Face

Spot On

Just Doggone

Started back on a fitness routine and doing better on my eating habits. Had dropped 3 lbs in about 10 days. Saturday is my normal weigh-in day. This morning put on a pair of capris that shouldhave been loose and damn, pretty tight. I will not weigh until next Sat. but this is bad! I keep trying to tell my self that it is the muscle I am getting back again but sure not convincing myself. And to top it off, my order from Nutsonline is due in tomorrow. Ratz and Frazt!


Prayer for the Day: Let there be peace in the world and, please, let it be muscle.

The Hardest

thing to adjust to now is NOT to be able to walk outside and drive off for several hours or go to an auction. Loss of freedom is terrible...

I am thankful that Mom's mind is pretty good, for t he most part and that she can still go to the table and eat, knows when she has to go to the bathroom and so on. It could be so much worse.

Ma Barker and gang

Ma Barker and gang
Originally uploaded by sfinds.

Ah, yes, going through a box of photos I ran across this one from the early '70s. Somewhere in Germany, on a semi cool day, my then hubby was having camera problems. After several botched attempts all the "subjects" were tired of "posing". When I saw this way back then I dubbed it Ma Barker and Gang. Seemed appropriate considering the looks reflected thoughts..

One More

project almost finished. The fellow replacing tile in the bottom half of the shower stall just has to grout tomorrow and let it cure for a couple of days..He did a great job with what he had to work with. We were lucky nothing had to be replaced behind the old tile. The transition is a deep maroon rope tile, taking it from the original light turquoise (early 60's) to a cool grey. Rather retro looking. Anyway, glad that is done. Will enjoy a shower now and not be afraid of knocking any tile off. In researching (very briefly) tile and bathrooms I found site where they install a new "shell" over t he existing tub. No need to knock it out. Might come in handy redoing an old place.

The other cool thing about the tile man...said he would be here at 8 a..m. and that is when he showed up..that's a double WOW!

Well, Damn

When I first sprung Mom out of the hospital, she wanted to sleep in her bed. I explained with the new Medi Lift chair, it would be better for a while to sleep in that. Last night I told her she could sleep in her bed, and, well, just damn, she doesn't want to. She decided to give it a try, though, and just now (4 a.m. potty time) told me she did NOT like it. So I decided, if that is the case, I am going to sleep in a bed instead of the couch and rely on the baby moniter. Let's hope that works.

For A Nice Change

The ex called this morning (we actually have joint sale going on) and we had a really nice visit. He had run into a mutual acquaintance at a swap meet yesterday and the funny thing was, just a few days ago I had been thinking about them. Anyway was a pleasant change of pace and felt good.

Maybe it contributed to my taking an hour and a half for myself this afternoon. Showered, shampooed, painted toe nails, good moisturizing and so on.

Did some of the very mild shoulder exercises with Mom today and she said she thought her arm was coming along better. She also walked better for me today. The new thing for tonight will be letting her sleep in her own bed instead of the lift chair. Sure hope I can get her up for the nocturnal bathroom stuff. We'll see. Won't know until we try.

Severe Weather

The second night for severe weather. And the cold stuff coming in behind it. Will be pretty chilly tomorrow.

Nebraska got beat..darn but Oregon beat Oklahoma ..yeah..and Florida beat Tennessee..double yeah.

Baked chicken and dressing in my new 10 deep DO that I got while in San Antonio. I really like this one. Well, I like 'em all but some are easier to cook in. This is the only Lodge Logic I have. That means it was preseasoned at the manufacturing site. Sure does make it easier. Just wash it up and start to cook.

I see I missed a call from the ex S.O. Checked the time and it was while getting Mom in from the front porch. She sat out for about an hour. I know she is bored and frustrated and deep down must realize she cannot not do what she use to.

The Two S's

Scary and Stupid

HERE

Another Day

I have to tell Mom not to get out of her chair if I want to run to the grocery store, etc. Today was able to getting the mowing done. It really needed it and she behaved. I just don't know if she really knows how unstable she is on her feet, or if she just gets stubborn and doesn't care.

It is hard to figure out her condition, both physical and state of mind. She acts different for me as opposed to the Home Health people. Maybe I hit on the right word, "acts".There is no way she can ever be alone again. I must check on respite care tomorrow. I know they have it, just don't know the particulars.

Sometimes I feel she is going down hill fast, then other times, I think she will pull through O.K. Guess time will tell.

I Can't Stand It

This caretaking crap and all the platitudes I hear from people. "You'll look back and be so glad you did this"..your Mom took care of your Dad for years (yeah, and they were married with the in sickness and health bit), I did not sign on for that, the bull shit from Mom's other daughter, the not so fucking subtle remarks from people that Mom not know how I feel...I could go on but you get the drift.

Two Weeks +

I know it could be MUCH worse but I am not cut out to be a caregiver.

The latest Xray shows Mom to have 4 fractures. Two are pieces of bone that "popped" off. Her PT is coming along but she is pretty unsteady on her feet and I am not sure that she realizes how bad it is. She has fallen one other time just being stubborn and it ticks me off as I am trying to get her better.
My nephews dog has been a good distsraction for both Mom and me. He called last night and they had some motorcycle problems and will be a day late getting back. Told him no problem here.

The weather has been cool and I am loving it.

The Baby Truck has new shoes and I had never heard of the brand but they have good reviews so we'll see. The best review was the one that said road noise was down...boy, I hope so. Hated what the old tires sounded like on certain types of hi-way.